I know all about first places coloring RP experiences...my first game and wank there colored mine badly, which is why I don't do anon stuff, or take much stock in it. And why I get paranoid every so often.
I really hope things calm down for you irl, that's pretty rough. Just remember to watch yourself when you're stressed. I suggest maybe playing a game that destresses you before then, or doing action-oriented tags or write fight scenes for the fun of it. You just don't want to channel some emotions too much, you know?
The best thing you can do is apologize to those you said things to in person, on PP or on AIM, try to mend bridges, and try hard to not do it again. It's not always easy, but as you work on it, I think you'll find things go a lot easier when you do.
*hugs you tight* If you ever want tips on that, or just to unwind, let me know on Plurk, alright? Hang in there, Ash. Don't hesitate to ask for help and support from us, we're your friends.
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I really hope things calm down for you irl, that's pretty rough. Just remember to watch yourself when you're stressed. I suggest maybe playing a game that destresses you before then, or doing action-oriented tags or write fight scenes for the fun of it. You just don't want to channel some emotions too much, you know?
The best thing you can do is apologize to those you said things to in person, on PP or on AIM, try to mend bridges, and try hard to not do it again. It's not always easy, but as you work on it, I think you'll find things go a lot easier when you do.
*hugs you tight* If you ever want tips on that, or just to unwind, let me know on Plurk, alright? Hang in there, Ash. Don't hesitate to ask for help and support from us, we're your friends.